There is a tranquility in this picture that I’m not quite feeling.
Yesterday I took the scissors to my hair. With a month to go until stylists are allowed to open up it may have been a rash move. Im not even sure why yesterday was the day I decided to do it. Too many Zoom meetings or calls I think. I spend most of my life not looking at myself . Meetings have become a liitle mad. Talking to a group of people, myself included, on Zoom shows me everything Ive ever wondered.
Did I Look Ok.
Do I look interested when others talk and I am listening.
Did I say what I needed too.
Can anyone tell Im also using my phone.
The last worry shouldn’t be a worry, additional devices are the current equivalent of arriving with a sheaf of papers. My actual papers , an old- school reporters notebook is just about full after a year of Zooming. It has a life of its own . There was a plan early on to use different colours for different Zooming. In the excitement, that has been lockdown life, Ive misplaced some of the colours. Without fail for at least the last three months I have forgotten to replace the notepad. In consequence my notes now fill borders and gaps between notes made months ago.
Yesterday I found 6 unused pages in the middle of the pad. The excitement in my room was palpable!
There is a quote in my head , I have no idea where I got it from.
” There is no point in an archive if there is not an efficient way of retrievals”
My Lockdown brain has got this covered!
Ask me for a certain date or point and I get too it really quickly. Somehow remembering the colours or patterns , doodles might be another word, where any particular meetings notes were jotted down. This could all have been done more efficiently with dedicated note books but I wasn’t planning on going on like this for a year. The notepad was temporary. I may never give it up.
If only I knew shorthand it would be a thing of true abstract beauty. A modern version of papyrus with stenograhic symbols merged with hieroglyphs.
The reality is messier. As was my hair.
The notebook is a keeper, the hair is gone.
Friday another week done .